towards/away
(2025)
site-sensitive installation with hand-processed 16mm film and projector
2 minutes 22 seconds, looped
“Emotions are always relational: they involve (re)actions or relations of 'towardness' or 'awayness' in relation to such objects.”
- Sara Ahmed, Cultural Politics of Emotion
towards/away is a filmic exploration of (un)fixed orientations.
The film, looping, (re)turns. To be thread(ed) again, coming towards you, (re)turning home, only to travel away through the bones of the space again. Through that which has (already) held so much weight. The film (image) changes with every cycle, encountering particles, making contact, encountering touch. The skin of the film will show lines, wear, age, folds, rupturing the image. Familiarity remains as the gradual change takes place, asking you to linger, to notice.
With every (re)turn there is an illusion of sameness within absolute change.
What you see depends on what you think you're seeing.
Where is the image? Aren't you over/looking (at) the entire apparatus?
Like ships crossing, the film passes itself.
A looped abrasion. Excessive contact with the unforeseen particle.
Sun and shadow are distorted in the acid bath, in the tangle, in
crevice, in heat.